Feeling lost in your 20s.

By Sarah Davila - 3:26 PM

Hitting 25, I'm realizing I'm not an adult, ha! When I was 16, I remember thinking when I'm in my 20s, I'm going to have my own house, have a career going on, maybe start a family, get married. . . but now that I'm 25, I'm like whoa, I still feel like a kid?! Is this what being an adult is? Being a lost big kid trying to figure things out. I feel like in life there is an order to things, or maybe being mexican, the culture has a certain expectation. . . you finish high school, go to college, get a career, get married, have kids. . . and so on. Then at family gatherings, being 25 and still not married, your grandparents and family members start asking when are you getting married? Didn't you graduate college? When are you going to put your degree to use? It starts to become overwhelming, and makes you feel like a failure. Although, I do have my degree, and have been graduated for 2 years now, 
it's 2017, things are changing
I feel people my age are wanting to do different things now! We aren't following the traditional route our parents took, we are waiting longer to have kids, waiting longer to get married, traveling, learning and following our own route. A little about me, I do have my certifications to teach as a background to fall on in case I want to go that route, I want to specialize in "special education" because that's where my heart lies, my degree is in 'rehabilitation', so I studied the different disabilities and am more familiar with that population. Although, I have that as my background, I am currently working with fashion at a local boutique in my hometown. I love my job so much, I love taking photos, I love putting outfits together, I love blogging, and I love helping people put outfits together for events they have coming up. 
My job is planning on expanding and were getting bigger as a company, and to grow with them would be so fun! I'm soon going to be apart of the social media team with Shop 112, and our social media is very well known! So this all feels so ideal to me. 
I feel I'm meant to be out there, and am supposed to do different things
sometimes I'm not sure I'm meant to be cooped up in a classroom all day hidden from the world. I want to influence people but differently, I want to influence via fashion and expression. Sometimes I feel very happy doing what I'm doing but in the back of my head, I still get nervous and feel I don't amount up to other people's eyes, because I don't have a "real" career. I know I still live at home with my mom and brother, and that also adds to the factors of pressure that I don't have my own place even though I'm already 25. Although, all these things float around my head, I remember I need to make myself happy, and that my happiness is most important. 
I think what's meant to be will be, and what is meant for me, will fall into place. Although, it might take time, and is going to be a different plan from everyone else, it will be MY plan, and I need to realize that. 
Everyone is meant to do something in their life, and it's okay if we all do different things, we shouldn't judge one person for doing one thing with their life while someone else is doing something completely different. 
Through all this, I feel being in your 20s is about finding yourself, and seeing what your supposed to do. I love that I am learning more things about myself, and what I like, what I enjoy, what makes me nervous, what gets me mad . . . I love getting to know me, and feeling less lost about myself. Although I sometimes feel like I'm the only one who doesn't know what I want to do "when I grow up", I recently met up with some former school colleagues, and some are just as lost as I am! It felt nice to not be alone, and can relate to other people my age. 
On another factor, I feel social media also contributes to having stress about our lives, we obviously only post the good stuff about ourselves, so us seeing other people and the "goodness" in their lives, it makes us feel like "less", because we only see the good of other people, 
but not their struggles that go on behind the scenes.
In the end, I need to remember that things are changing, and traditions are changing too. It's okay if I don't have a family by my mid-twenties, or that my career choice isn't what my friends are choosing, I'm doing what makes ME happy! I always hear people choose a profession then complain constantly, and I don't want that to be my life . . . I want to be happy, and enjoy what I do. So here's to the rest of my twenties . . . figuring stuff out and working on MY happiness.

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